Wake up and Discover yourselves.

Depression and anxiety.

2011-05-23T01:55:00.001-07:00

My marks are not meeting the required grade, and I can't handle exam, assignment, and health stress all at once. That close to a nervous breakdown.

I have an announcement.

2011-05-21T23:02:00.001-07:00

She is mine. :D

I'm sick of all this.

2011-05-16T23:53:00.001-07:00

'You fend for yourself and nobody's gonna help you but yourself. This is a fact of life, and many people are going to try to take advantage of you. Shut them out.'

that is what mom always told me. Now I see why. To all bugs in my life, fuck out. I don't need you.

Just miss you so much.

2011-04-19T11:29:00.001-07:00

Hehe sorry I curi this from your facebook.

Me miss that girl.

Supposed to be studying for test tomorrow but
I dont care.

Cause I just wanna say I miss you.

And if 'miss' can be plotted against 'time' my 'miss' should look something like this.

:( Need you.

I stepped outside when everything was going right, and my heart could barely follow me :’(

2011-02-15T04:52:00.000-08:00

Here I am lying down on my new bed in Australia, and I cannot stop tearing on my pillow.

I cannot stop thinking of you.

I cannot stop thinking of all the wonderful times we ever spent together, short, but there they are playing and replaying in my mind.

I cannot stop trying to convince myself that I cannot hold you in my arms anymore.

I cannot stop telling myself that you won’t be by my side again when I wake up.

I cannot stop replaying the scene when you took one last wave at me, sobbing, as I disappeared through the departure hall.

And I cannot stop replaying the guilt, as I took one final turn away from you as I walked away to chase my dreams.

And this is what I do every night here before I sleep. Thinking of you.

I miss everything about you. You would laugh at every silly thing I did, slap me for no apparent reason while laughing, get angry for 2 seconds before putting back a smile and the occasional laughter. And I miss how disgusting or annoying you would be in front of me, and for that I would give you a slap on the face or the thigh playfully before apologizing until you would talk to me. Then we would laugh it off.

And then almost every morning, I would wake up in excitement because I knew exactly what I was going to do on that day.......to spend the rest of it with you. I would map out my routine path to your campus in my mind and leave 2 hours early even though I only always needed much less time than that to travel. But I did, because I wanted to wait for you and all I ever looked forward to was that big smile you had when you come out of class seeing me right there waiting for you.

You would come out complaining about the boring day you had, I would complain about the rubbish I had to take on the way to your campus. Then we would complain about each other because none of us planned what to do on that day. And still at the end of the day, we would feel like it was the best day we spent together. Then at night, we would tell each other how much we miss one another even though it has been only a few hours.

And whenever we were in your car, I would fight with you over the radio even though I know I would lose out. I still did, because I loved how adorable you looked when you whine and scold me as I insisted to change the song. And I just had to warn you endlessly about driving carefully, just for the fun of it.

As I am typing this post I am smiling because I am reminiscing those little little moments that made our relationship such a happy one.

But its not the same smile anymore, because here we are torn apart by distance :’(. I am listening to the CD you gave me on the night before I left and I cry every time I listen to it. I just cannot get you out of my mind.

And it is so difficult, because my mind keeps replaying the scene at the airport, the night before I left, and the morning that I left. I held your hand tightly in the airport, because we were nearing the time to let go of each other. I just didn’t know how to let go. The last hug we had is the strongest memory I have of us, because that made us cry uncontrollably. Releasing myself from that hug and eventually my hand from your hand was the most difficult moment we ever had together.

Walking away from you through that departure gate.

I wish I could tell you that I would come back to you after 5 years, but I hate breaking my promises as 5 years is a lot of time. And here we are separated by so much distance. I will always remember the two pacts that we made. And I dare tell you that,

Maybe my love will come back some day,

Only heaven knows. And if you ever return, then I’ll know you are mine. But only heaven knows.

But I cannot stop thinking of you. And I hate sleeping because I always dream of you and wake up to this reality. I am really thankful that I got the window seat in the airplane, because I started sobbing when the plane aligned itself on the runway track for take off. And I was uncontrollable as the plane gained speed and finally lifted itself. No one saw me crying because I only looked out through the window hoping that maybe somewhere, I would see you. How ridiculous of me.

I miss you. I know I’m lucky, but what is it without you here. Some day, I would move on. Or would I? I cannot promise myself this, just as I cannot promise you that I would come back after 5 years. And I dread the day that we both would have forgotten each other. Again, there are no promises that we can make :’(

But for now, here I am playing our wonderful times together again and again, but only in my mind. I wish this didn’t have to happen because for now, I just don’t know how to let go of you. How could I possibly let go of this feeling?

Every couple that I see here in Australia reminds me of us. And every moment I have to myself is spent thinking of you. I could barely stand this loneliness. And I feel this emptiness all around me trapped, as if its way out is lost just as my heart is.

That is because my heart is still holding on to you. Still watching over you, knowing it would have to move on, but hoping in 5 years it would come back. For now, I know surely that this loneliness and emptiness is because I miss you, and because my heart simply has not followed me here.

I love you, Denise Leom. And I am sorry this had to happen, but I love you.

And I swear I won’t forget you.

Maybe, just maybe, my love will come back.

But for now, its as strong as ever :'(

How do I let go? Only time would tell :'( :'( :'(

Love,

Manwyn.

I love you :'(

Playing with those memories again.

2010-11-22T02:18:00.001-08:00

Here I am. Blogging after a year of absence. And Here I am blogging, because I know no one is likely to read this post. Here I am blogging because, I can barely stand this pain.

I should just let the lyrics of this song express my feelings.

HERE I AM

Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting me

Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside

So there's no sense pretending
My heart it's not mending

(Chorus)
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh, baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without you

On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone
I've done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain

I just can't live without you
I miss everything about you

(Chorus)
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without
Go on without
It's just no good without you

Without you, without you, without you
Oh baby, those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without, you

People say, set free the ones you love and if they return, then its meant to be.

But why is this so difficult?

When DISGUSTING gets the better of my law textbook.

2010-03-22T21:50:00.000-07:00

So yesterday i was sitting in my parents office doing some assignments for next week, and suddenly Chia Sing asked 'eh you free or not teman me go prince court hospital to see a friend'.

I was reluctant.
2 hours later,
I was in Prince court hospital.

But that is not the point. The point is I met her at Masjid Jamek Station, and a she exposed a series of erm...chia singness haha.

Chia Singness #1.
I came to masjid jamek station from bukit jalil station.

Masjid jamek station is divided into two parts, separated by roads. So we were at station B because i was from bukit jalil, and the train i came down from was heading towards sentul timur.

Chia sing met me there, and said 'Lets go Hang Tuah station to take monorail to Raja Chulan. I was too lazy to move, and without thinking, she immediately took her ticket and put it in the machine.

I looked at her, horrified, because we were actually supposed to cross the road to station A since thats where the train heading for Hang Tuah would be.

So how? Wrong station! But she managed to sort it out...with embarrasment!

Chia Singness #2

Then we were at Hang Tuah monorail station, i met an old friend, and we talked a while. Meanwhile, cs was holding my law textbook, texting apparently. SO how do you hold a textbook?

Like this
Gone.

Yer.

Chia Singness #3
She almost dragged me to the mortuary of Prince Court Hospital after visitng Ron.
And said i was uncool for refusing very vehemently to go down there where all the dead bodies are.
Disgusting. Haha.

From parents office to all that crap. Only can get exclusively from Chia Sing Haha but don't get the wrong impression about her!
Don't jump to conclusions about her.
She's just funny at times.

K gotta go.

Problem week ahead.

2010-03-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

Tuesday: Accounts exam, detailed outline of English essay assignment due, Malaysian studies assignment due.

Right now, I've not done or prepared for any of that.
Big problem. More like 'problem tuesday ahead'.
So to start off, I am not sleeping tonight,
And to save time, I'm not going to blog any further.

Stress is the name of the game. Thats the price of expectation. The price I'm paying. Say 'boo' to life. Cheers.

Still missing Help. Oh crap exams.

2010-02-25T00:16:00.000-08:00

Shit I still miss HELP. This is too much. I am just seven days away in Taylor's to have spent equal amount of time in HELP but still this is too much.

Anyways, next week is like exam week. There are two law tests, one accounts test, and two maths tests. I am going to be a very busy man over the weekends. Study study study!
Study!

And yes i'm going to petrosains to check out the muzika exhibition sounds interesting.
Its "the science of music" in English. Awesome right.
K gotta ciao bus coming.

STILL bored with a lot of homework.

2010-02-03T23:50:00.000-08:00

SAM is so much more disgusting than A-levels. Right now i'm in the computer lab of Taylors which they call 'The Webb' or something like that and about to go back to the hostel room.

Life here seems to be improving, but as each day passes, i am missing HELP more. More and more. I wonder how to kill time. No wi-fi in the apartment unit yet but thankfully they have already installed the astro services.

But its still boring. And there is so so so so so much homework to do. One million assignments, a handful of random homeworks, lots of catching up, and deadlines written all over my year planner. SAM is like the programme of assignments. Delay work, and might as well go dive into the septic tank.

I'm not missing home yet, but am also glad that I'll be home tomorrow. But HELP, i still cant get over this. Every moment that moves here in Taylors heaps onto my misery of missing HELP. Gosh. Ouch. Attachment is in fact the root of all suffering.
Hopefully I'll get over this fast.

Life's okay though don't worry about me.
And i met Michelle today, Jason yesterday.
If anyone has any tips on how to kill time in a hostel without getting arrested, please leave a note.
Time for assignments and catching up.

Change.

2010-01-29T03:54:00.000-08:00

It looks like i have decided to stay in the dorm at Taylor's....
This is a massive change compared to the live i was living in HELP!
It is also quite a transformation in my life because i have never stayed in a dorm before and away from my family...i am going to miss them!
And also, i am going to miss my routine life at home, and miss all the chances of meeting up with my old school friends...

But thankfully Jason and Michelle are also at the same Taylors campus doing the same programme so i will have some teman there yay

I am coming back every weekend though takkan lah i wanna stay there the whole time right..Haha

But i have to talk about what i am going to miss. A lot.
HELP college!
Omg i miss all the lecturers, especially my physics lecturer(so funny) and also my chemistry lecturer( so passionate).
I am going to miss the building. And all that expensive food i keep complaining about. All my new friends who i knew for only three weeks. And counter-strike at the computer lab. And Rotiman bakery. And all that bullshit from Chia Sing (chang!). And all that traveling which sucks the life out of me by the time i reach home. And the whole obsession with cameras and photographs even when dealing with dangerous chemicals in the lab. And Chillax. And Subway. And the cafetarias. And the freezing air-cond. Ok Ok cut the crap to cut the long story short i'm just gonna HELP!

Oh yeah one more thing i'm missing the futsal team also. Haha. Jaarvis la you better come back from your Ipoh fast or i'll quit supporting Liverpool. Lol jkjk

Anyways my life is going to change a lot. Hopefully can keep reconnecting with everyone. And Garry why you deny my access to your blog?? Go rectify fast fast fast...Haha
Ciaos

Esctatic!

2010-01-27T08:24:00.000-08:00

Checked my mail and yes i got the scholarship!
Although i am happy right now, it is conditional, minimum of 7As for SPM. Suddenly i am so worried about my SPM results.

So after going through all that rounds of interview, it finally happened and i really would like to thank all my friends who have morally supported me throughout this grueling process! Thank you all!

But,
First of all, I AM leaving HELP college. I have to enrol in Taylors for the SAM programme by the 2nd of February. This means, i am only going to be in HELP for 4 more days or so.
Ouch. Things in life come and go just like that. The life i thought i would get comfortable woth will suddenly change. Absolutely everything.
And hell yes, i am going to cherish my last few days in HELP.

Today we were all like so happy to get out lab coats and goggles some more but see now my first is the last. U.U
Nevertheless, i will remember all that has happened in HELP!
And of course i will never forget my school friends, whom till today i believe we are all still very close despite the differences and distance...

Till then, Happy Chinese New Year!

Waiting.

2010-01-27T01:02:00.000-08:00

Right now i'm stuck in the computer lab, waiting for Chia Sing, Levi, and Kai Shek to finish their LAN subjects which ends at 7. Its 5 now. Haha. Okay right after this post i'm gonna do my maths homework and catch up on some economics.

And also, i'm still waiting for Sime Darby. Don't know whether i got it or not but i have a fishy feeling i won't get it. Well it was an experience worth going through though.

And today our Chemistry teacher finally banned us from taking anymore photographs in the lab. We just can't help it! Some more today is the first day we are wearing our lab coats and goggles into the lab and the whole place just looked white.
Our crystals (Nickel Sulphate) turn out just nice! But right now its already turning to powder form cause Chia Sing is keeping it and knowing her, things just break/get damaged in her possesion. Haha sry sry just kidding.

K la i have to go start doing work.

Physics class in 18 minutes.

2010-01-24T19:44:00.000-08:00

These people around me (Keng Yee, Chia Sing, Naomi etc) want me to blog something so here i am blogging about the most random thing.

Physics class starts in 18 mins, wait now its 15 minutes. And i'm still here in the computer lab blogging.
And right now they are crapping. Like hell. Making a lot of noise.
Making me freaking stressed up.

Everyone is picking on me. Especially Chia Sing. Go read here lousy blog. It'll say exactly the same thing. And i removed the picture of me on my blog because they say its weird. I have to agree. Haha.
Actually this is my most random post by far. Sorry for wasting your time. Haha.
Oh Oh and Naomi is complaining that nobody blogs anymore these days. Make noise only her job. XP Dahlah sendiri takde blog nak marah orang.

A Friday.

2010-01-22T05:59:00.000-08:00

I don't want to make this a long post, just that i want to blog about my relatively 'lively' lifeless day. Haha.

College ended at 10, and then went to settle LAN payment.
And then lunch.
Then went to maybank with Chia Sing teman her to open account with her mom.
Then we were walking towards times square and suddenly her friend called and asked us to watch a movie for him since he won't be able to make it.
So we just collected the movie tickets, Legion, Premier class some more. Fulamak. Haha.
But before the movie we went to borders to read for a while to read on parallel universes and it turned out to be a very 'discovering' read.
The movie really sort of turned out to be a real letdown. And i am very sure Christians will not like it. Even as a Buddhist i didn't like it.
BUT Chia Sing said it was awesome.
And i went "what??"
LOL.
Anyways after the movie we went to borders again to continue our 'concern' of the day which was parallel universes.
Michio Kaku rocks!
Then ciaoed at 6.30 and we ended up discussing about the topic in the car, and CS's mom was like,
"You all think too much! Should enjoy life as teenagers!"
"But this rocks!" was the reply.
Eh it really does okay for those who condemn the theoretical world of physics.

Anyways I'm glad Jeremy also thinks that
1) Religion came before Moral
2) Moral came after Religion
3) Religion did not come after Moral
4) Moral did not come before Religion
5) Our Moral teacher is very very close-minded

Wake up la this is a world of opinions not your world of unfounded facts!
Someone needs to tell our moral teacher that.

And today we were trading emo songs and it turns out Chia Sing's phone is heavily and dangerously loaded with emo songs.
Anyone who is really very sad and on the brink of suicide, heed my advice, DON'T GO TO HER. Haha. Her emo songs are worse than titanic to the power of 3.

Anyways i will know the Sime Darby results by Tuesday. Don't ask me how yesterday went because i really don't know how to judge it based on my opinion.
Ciao!

The FInal Interview

2010-01-18T08:27:00.001-08:00

OMG i just found out that i am shortlisted for Sime Darby's final interview...
Its this Thursday evening.

I am happy, but emotionally wrecked at the same time..
I am that close to saving my parents a lot of money,
yet that close to leaving college and my new friends,
what should i do?

Try my best, and see what is in store for me.
I love you all.

Sime Darby Interview

2010-01-13T00:18:00.000-08:00

Only yesterday, i was told that i was shortlisted for Sime Darby's Third Level scholarship interview, and off all days, the interview is today.
I was horrified.
Tomorrow interview today you tell???

And it was 8.30 in the morning till 12, and i had to skip two classes in college. Wtf!!
And the worst part of it all, was of course the interview itself.
There were seven of us in one session, and i was told that there are about 15 other sessions on other days other times. Roughly 100 in total surviving till round 3.

So the seven of us were put in one room, briefed on the day's programme, and were promptly sent to our respective rooms for assessment.

ROUND 1
Each of us were isolated in separate rooms, given pencils, mahjong paper, testpad, tapes, marker pens, a calculator, and a company portfolio.
Within 30 minutes, we were supposed to analyse the portfolio, and prepare a 15 minute presentation on the company as a marketing executive speaking to a business director (our assessors). And hell it was difficult!
I mean, i just came out from the textbooks, and there i was stuck with a portfolio expected to deliver a full presentation on mahjong paper on business for 15 minutes??
I was like, oh shit, i'm in the wrong place.
And the presentation, as expected, did not go well.

ROUND 2
Now all 7 of us were put together for a group discussion, which was a board meeting simulation. Again we were given portfolios on the situations of three manufacturing plants throughout Malaysia of the same company in round 1, and were expected to discuss as a group to finally decide which manufacturing plant to shut down, considering the circumstances.
And again, i went, wtf??
We were given data on stock turnovers, redundancy packages and stuff like that and off we went, crapping our way out the little predicament we got ourselves into.
All of us were science students, and all of us were equally 'mesmerised' by the folios.
It was pretty intense.

ROUND 3
This time, we were separated each into our own room, and were given yet another portfolio. This round is what they supposedly call 'role-play' and we were acting as a staff of the human resource department and were supposed to convince a 'stubborn' worker on several issues that were not at all easy to settle.
Our task was to convince that worker on human resource issues within 20 minutes. This time it wasn't so difficult because it was more to the application of persuasive skills and other skills such as lets-see-how-quick-you-can-come-up-with-some-crap-to-convince-me skills.

All the three rounds took about 3 hours, ended at 12.
And resulting me to enter chemistry class one hour late, not to mention skipping econs and maths. There was no thrill, just an interview loaded with business/economics/market stuff which completely freaked me out!

A new life to discover, A past to carry me through.

2010-01-08T10:05:00.000-08:00

So college has started since last Monday and i must say it is very very tiring!
The reason is not because of the classes, homework or anything which i, till now, find easier than secondary school, but it is because of transport U.U
Almost every morning i'm waking up as early as 5.15 a.m, leaving the house at 6.15 to take the train from Ampang STAR LRT such that i end up at Bangsar PUTRA LRT...and it takes me almost one and a half hours to reach college from home. Tiring!

But back to the main point, the first few days in college were probably a little difficult due to lack of friends, a situation i have not experienced since form three when i first shifted to SAB.
Anyways i'm glad that there are a few of us from SAB in the same college and that definitely helps when you look around and realize there's not really anyone you know. It stinks really.
Now, i'm getting used to my new life and friends in college gradually and i really hope i can finally make myself 'at home' by the end of next week otherwise its gonna be bad.

Nevertheless, i must never forget my secondary school friends and my err..secondary school?
That day i logged into facebook and was shocked to see so many people complaining about changes that have taken place in SAB...especially in the discipline department. What happened? Can anyone further enlighten me on this? Is it that bad? And i also heard that our erm...beloved...Puan Usha Diane has left SAB for CBN as penyelia petang. Now that is really bad. She was one of the exemplary teachers in our school who had the potential of rising through the ranks...but sadly promotion was offered together with a shift to CBN. Well we can't really blame because its her choice of career.
So dear schoolmates in SAB, fight till the very end! Screw the changes because we humans are meant to adapt and continue to make our school proud with the manyak-manyak As!

Many of them in college are so amazingly yet scarily smart and this means i have to buck up but why should i? It only seems yesterday that i walked out of that SPM examination hall..haha
And for where i am today, i would like to thank
1. Tadika Little Foot
2. Seri Mawar Kindergarten
3. SK St. John (1) KL
4. SMK St. John KL
5. SMK Aminuddin Baki KL

I will miss all of it! Today i went to CBN to bring my sister back home and realized how much i still miss St. John's and even took a short walk in the school. Such a beautiful place you know.
But there is no place more beautiful than my memories, and with that, i will take off into college life!

And on Thursday..my chemistry lecturer was like "Remember, that the two reasons why you are in college is to STUDY and BUILD YOUR CHARACTER. Thats all, nothing more."
But many things come under 'BUILD YOUR CHARACTER' right? Haha...jkjk...i know what you think i am thinking but you're wrong XP
Its just amazing that she took the time to remind us why we're in college. But ulterior motives are always the ones that make life so interesting! Seriously. I'm kidding. Nights!

Sunway Lagoon Highlights

2009-12-22T11:11:00.000-08:00

Went to Sunway Lagoon with Kai Shek, Kimberly, Kharti, Su Yin, and Ushana yesterday and it was a bittersweet outing. Really.
Here are the highlights.

GOOD
1. That wicked flying boat ride was awesome although i almost pulled out! (Go to hell fear my of heights!)
2. I wasn't wrong on the mode of public transport there >.< (take note Ushana)
3. Weather
4. The other rides at the parks
5. The Lifeguard at the pool who kinda saved two lives
6. How long we were actually in the parks...11a.m.-6p.m.!
7. It was fun

NOT GOOD
1. Don't ask me why, but our lockers were 5 minutes walk away from the water park
2. Rental and Deposit for floats U.U
3. I left my home with RM130, came back with RM8
4. Public transport there is really long and costly!
5. Food inside the park are more expensive than diamonds
6. So many people
7. Kimberly and Su Yin are shopping queens XP
8. We were back really late and some of us got our parents..unhappy

Of Heroes and Zeroes.

2009-12-18T03:50:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a really, fun-ny day. I left home by one plus for futsal, and right after that sped off to the much-anticipated Interact club poolside party at Prisma Cheras or something with Jaarvis and Adam.
And many funny things happened throughout the whole of yesterday, which i discovered consisted of Heroes and Zeroes.
Here they are..

HEROES

1. That ISKL fella who played a prominent role in the survival of our team against SBU
- who bugged the whole midfield of SBU, scored a few goals, and stamped a strong presence of authority to hold our game together. If not for him, we would have been well beaten and dumped for good.

2. Jaarvis a/l Verasingam
- who bugged me to stop playing so that we would be able to make it in time for the party. And luckily, he went as well or i would have died of boredom at the party.

3. Kimberly's brother
- who was willing to take us to the party venue despite 7 people in one Proton Persona. And, had a good eye for cops blocking the road so that Adam and I had enough time to 'evacuate' the car so that we will not get summoned for 'overfilling' a car, and of course, not wearing seat belts!

4. SAB Interact Club
- for organizing the party!

5. My ear plugs
- which worked pretty well!

6. See Teng, Annabelle, Rocyie, etc
- who argued with the guards of the swimming pool who clearly were being very unreasonable. First they said no going in because some of us were wearing shirts and not properly attired, then they said we're not supposed to use the pool because we only rented the swimming pool site but not the swimming pool. Yes, people can actually be so stupid, and bravo to See Teng, Annabelle, Rocyie, and i don't remember who else, who tried to point out their stupidity by arguing with them!

7. Umesh and his mom
- who luckily were willing to give Adam, Jaarvis, and I a ride to the Bandar Tun Razak LRT station because we were clearly in transport trouble home!

8. The Malaysian Football U-23 team.
- Lastly but not least, to our national football team that took gold in the SEA games in Laos for beating Vietnam in the finals!

ZEROES

1. Jaarvis a/l Verasingam
- Who came to the futsal game like a hero with fellow Sabians cheering his long awaited attendance. We thought he was going to bring in an extra dimension to our game and thus the cheers, but then, it didn't take long for him to annouce that he wasn't actually going to play because of his injury. Boo! XP

2. The weather
- Rained and thunder during the party which delayed us from getting into the swimming pool. U.U

3. That old man who shouted at us
- who shouted at Tammie and a few other guys for throwing her into the pool. Here's exactly what he said..."Eh, please respect the rules of the swimming pool!". If only we had the chance to shout back "No country for old men!"

4. The management of that condominium and their guards
- First, no shirts in the swimming pool, then, no using the swimming pool because we only rented the swimming pool site but not the swimming pool. Utter idiots! And they said they're not returning See Teng's deposit. Something seems to be wrong with the management, and if I'm not mistaken, people call it STUPIDITY. And yeah, the guards who took pictures of us for evidence, what say you if we sue you guys for Invasion of Privacy?

5. Chicken wings
- that took awfully long to cook, and i didn't eat even one XD

Sisters and Brother, Before and After

2009-10-23T11:20:00.000-07:00

I'm just terribly bored of studying now and am a bit afraid of sleeping also because my brother apparently heard strange noises in the room last night (which i don't believe!), so i'm just here making another nostalgic post.

Its funny cause every post i'm making these days seem to be more of the reminiscent type as SPM nears.
Its like a prisoner on Death Row remembering his life before his date of execution.
Its just this feeling. Haha.

I'm Guessing, 1997.

12 Disguting years later, in pretty much the same position.

Sister and Sister.

If only i knew they'd be like this 14 years later, i would have searched for a rubbish bin a little quicker. XD

So young. So bright.
Older. Darker.

7 years old, 3 years old, 4 years old.
I sometimes can't help but wonder why do I have to look the dumbest in these pictures.

And.....my lil' bro popped along.

9 years later.

Family picture, 2000.
Same thing, 2007.

And of course, How could i forget!(although 2 days late here and 1 day late there in England)

Happy 20th Birthday Che!
from your adorable little brother =)

Study hard in England ya!

Oh Btw Good Luck and study hard to all the Form 5's out there for SPM!
Put oil!

Nostalgia.

2009-10-12T09:22:00.000-07:00

Just now i was cleaning up my study table and i came across a piece of paper with quite some historical significance!

Actually it is a schedule of the activities that i wrote immediately after arriving home from KEM SUNGAI REMBAI (if that's how you spell it) and i thought it would be fun to put this on my blog since there is really nothing much to blog on these days.

So, this is basically how the camp went according to this paper i found, dated back to the early days of April 2009 -some day- (i forgot)
So anyone who was a big part of this schedule of activities, enjoy remembering what you could have forgotten!

BTW i'm just gonna type back whatever i had written on that paper. Very simplistic.
DAY 1
5.++ p.m. - Arrived at Kampung, assembled, divided into families.

6.++ p.m. - Get to know family, get to know house, sorted rooms

6.++p.m. - Bored, got out of the house, met with other friends, walked and explored around the kampung, Galah panjang and volleyball at balai tak jadi, went back home

7.++p.m. - Chill in house, dinner, really nothing to do, no cards/no phone/ no nothing

9.++p.m. - Call friends out, walk in the dark with torch, met with fellas, had a ball, played football at night in front of balai!

10.++p.m. - Curfew! All went back to respective houses

10.++p.m. - Bathe, watched 'Austin Powers', Tired, Slept

DAY 2
5.30a.m. - Woke up, chill outside the house while Chris tried hopelessly to solve Rubik's cube

6.++a.m. - Slept till mosquitoes did waking up job, bathe

7.++a.m. - Go balai, met up with fellas, had morning drink at warung, went back to houses

8.++a.m. - Bathe, breakfast

9.++a.m. - all students on time for assembly, teachers late.
- EXPLORACE, same group with Garry, Yan yuan, Serene, Jaarvis, Wern Xin, and two Malay girls.

10.++a.m.- EXPLORACE activities, kebun getah, ketupat, eel, coconut, tebu hole, brush, separate grains, batik
- played some batu loncatan

1.++p.m.- Back to house, Slept, lunch, bathe, pants crisis

2.45p.m.- late to assembly but ok
- ceramah/ activities
- paper clip
- selipar buruk
- paper clip float
- nail balance
- pengajaran pada hari ini ialah 'bla bla bla...'

6.++p.m.- teacher allowed to play football at balai after heavy negotiations

6.45p.m.- back to houses
- bathe
- dinner

8.++p.m.- GO malam kebudayaan
- nice starting, silat show
- became boring, lousy disco

11.++p.m.- went back to houses, tired, sleep, bathe

12.++a.m.- Match- Chelsea VS Arsenal FA CUP final/ fell asleep watching

3.++a.m. - woke up, saw tv watching everyone, switched off tv, back to sleep

DAY 3
6.30a.m.- woke up, cycled alone to balai, missed jogging appointment with Garry, rode to 'simpang', met Jaarvis, Kimberly, Bryan

7.++a.m.- went back to Balai, had a ball, nobody to play football, had a drink at warung with shun ren and other friends, no bike, walked back to house

8.++a.m.- bathe, breakfast

9.++a.m.- a little late for assembly, but as usual, teacher later, took us to sempadan area

10.++-12.++p.m.- Divided into teams, games,
- pull pinang tree
- push tyre rim
- balance flour on head
- play selipar buruk game
- walk through some sawah
- went back to houses, slept, bathe

12.++-1.++p.m.- Took final picture with family, packed bags, went back to KL.

Phew.

SAB IU day Montage (25th July 2009)

2009-09-14T02:42:00.000-07:00

This is a VERY VERY late one but i did put a lot of effort into making this montage..so please enjoy it!- especially those who were were involved in it XD

Oh btw please leave some comments if you feel like so i can maybe try to edit it for improvement.

Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga.

2009-09-09T10:23:00.000-07:00

REALLY, i could not think of a better title for this post.

Its funny how in everyday life, we see people(if you know who i might be referring to) walk away from almost everything they do. Guilty- Bad- Not innocent- Unethical- Hypocritical- etc

LET me tell you, this kind of people are DANGEROUS. They are, superficially charming, sometimes especially skilled in oratory, neither too smart nor dumb, and last but not least, a motherload of hypocracy.
Yet, they are gifted with the unfortunate talent of talking their asses out of virtually every trouble they get into. Sweet talk, in that sense, is their game.

Disgust is all we should have for such existing humans. I mean, they LIE and they CHEAT and they FAKE and they ADD(if you know what i'm saying) and they ACT and they DO just about everything that goes into the list of 'Guiness Book of Records of the World's Greatest Acts of hypocracy'.

AND worst of all, they think they CAN GET AWAY with it.

But that is wrong. Nobody gets away with anything. You either face justice here, or else God will finish off the job. Sometimes, both.

The fact is, nature is nature. No matter how long people like this go on living in their sweet little world of self-deception, it won't last forever. They will falter somewhere, eventually and when it happens- it all comes down harshly.

Believe me, i've seen this happening. As recent as, lets say, just now. Haha.
So i am talking based on, experience. As a witness of course, not the perpetrator.

Here is a little picture summary of what i'm trying to say which i find humorous, but accurate enough.

A very commonly perceived notion....

.....which doesn't last long

This is HOW.

Somehow one of the best ever.

2009-09-05T11:40:00.000-07:00

I'm just overwhelmed because i just realised that this futsal team is seriously one of the best i've ever played with.

Made in SAB.

THanks guys for making up such a beautiful team,
and of course today yet another great game! Haha
Handed the boys from Taylors a 23-11 defeat although Jaarvis couldn't find a better time to sprain his ankle XD, and me cramping my same calf muscle 3 times in a game for some reason.

K la properly properly now time to focus on SPM and studies.
FOCUS.

Short Funny Sayings that i find amusing.

2009-08-30T05:03:00.000-07:00

Although random, i went through a lot to come up with this post after browsing all over the web....so enjoy!

1.An adult is someone who has stopped growing at both ends and started growing in the middle.-author unknown

2.Age is a very high price to pay for maturity.-author unknown

3."When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car"-author unknown

4."I can resist everything except temptation."-Oscar Wilde

5."A good essay is 10% inspiration, 15% perspiration, and 75% desperation"-author unknown

6."Marriage is a three ring circus: engagement ring, wedding ring, and suffering."-author unknown

7."I'm desperately trying to figure out why kamikaze pilots wore helmets."-Dave

8."The trouble with being punctual is that nobody's there to appreciate it."-Franklin P.Jones

9."Man invented language to satisfy his deep need to complain."-Lily Tomlin

10."The depressing thing about tennis is that no matter how good I get, I'll never be as good as a wall." -Mitch Hedberg

Source: www.short-funny-quotes.com

Oops.

2009-08-22T21:28:00.000-07:00

OMG i'm slowly losing my senses....Haha
On Friday when i went futsal, i got a full-impact blow to my right eye by the ball.
And now, i'm half blind in that eye at night for some reason U.O
Which means i'm 1/4 blind at night,
and am going to be very afraid of the dark till i get used to it.
NS doesn't sound like a bright prospect for me..especially at night.
But what the heck, i can live with it!
This is an illustration to cut the story short.

right eye in the day

right eye at night

Anyways trials are over and its time to celebrate for a little while before getting serious for SPM. Gtg.

IU day- Random pictures with Jo, Rocyie, and Anabelle.

2009-08-03T10:07:00.000-07:00

I honestly think this post should have been here like, last week when IU day was still fresh in our memories, but what the heck, anything is fresher than a stale pile of Sejarah knowledge rotting in my head.

So these pictures show what Josephine, Rocyie, Anabelle, and I did after IU day while Joo Er, Serene and Kim were..err..counting money? I guess..

They are totally random, some even candid. Credits to photographer Chi Jun!
Anyways IU day wa-ltz so fun. As far as i remember, that was the last fun thing i did. Besides campfire.
After that till now, Books. And also for the next three weeks. Sweet.

Literally, checking legs out.

A candid picture, filled with joy. Jo's Greek Model. Haha.

Not fair! All of us were caught off guard, except for, maybe Anabelle. This was how it was supposed to look like! I sometimes wonder if this picture should be censored material or not.XP
We always liked this picture, especially Rocyie. Hahaha.

There are so many more pictures, but its freaking late now.
This is probably my last post till the end of this month,
SO,
Good luck to all Form 3 and 5 students in SAB in your trials!
Ka yao.
Tambah minyak.
Add oil.
Ina Bortambahi sapri oily. whatever its supposed to mean.

PBSM camp- random photos

2009-07-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

The PBSM camp last friday-saturday-sunday was just too fun. Everything and anything was fun, and it was the first dorm i ever stayed in that ever had air-conditioner.
Super comfortable!

Anyways,
Some of the fun things include,
The dorm (too comfortable)
The bus trip (bus accidents happen sometimes)
Food (nothing special actually)
Jungle trekking (dark, strenous, eerie, but challenging and fun- especially when the candle-holder in front of you is Jaarvis)
Sleep (enough!)
Morning exercise (Dogs there are afraid of humans)
Obstacle course (gayat gayat)
Beach trip (woohoo! beach football, splash water)
*activity cannot be blogged about due to special instructions* XD
Dikir Barat (Selat Melaka!)
Sleep (9 hours!)
Tak-jadi explorace (stupid rain)
Bus trip back (nothing special also)

rock ON PBSM!
'Tak tolak, tak gerak'
Here are some random photos i took with my pathetic 2MP phone-
(i got it in the wrong order of time but it doesn't really matter) XP

Time to go home but everyone reluctantly looking and lazing around
I dont know how this picture got here
Beautiful scenery of the common area

There's something i like about this photo XD

The body language here suggests its..pack up time! U.U

This photo may be random, but that house in the middle of the sea is even more random
Smile ladies!
Boy A : You done your BM homework edi?
Boy B : Shut up!
Somewhere, over the rainbow..
Scenery
Yea..pose pose
See Kee..
A close up on Hoo Keen's ears
The canteen
Shirt or skin? Haha..no offence bro
Simply captivating
A beauty

Xian Jin escaping my camera
Got any problem talk! Dont tighten the noose..
KUS for sale
So i put this knot in, out, left, right, up, or down?

9 nails on 1!

Cheap trick

Beautiful Sun peeking over the horizon..

Nature

No publicity please..

You wont get this anywhere else...Brandon+enlarged eyes+bunny costume

No seriously..you only find such pictures of him here
Guys dorm..so beautiful+ Adam and Jaarvis dancing

Container-dorm

Watch watch...something up there

Say cheese!

If only she knew how much salt we put into the sea daily...

This pose looks awfully familiar

Serene harrased by Chris, and later joined by Jaarvis

Feet only...pose!

Go Camp, Come IU day!

2009-07-01T02:44:00.000-07:00

Yes!! Two more exciting events before the real hell starts!

First is PBSM camp this Friday and its at the beachside(!) Wakiakiakia
Maybe we should bury somebody there..
Anyways i'm just excited to go to this camp because it is the last ever camp i'll ever go to in my entire school life.
The next camp, National Service. I got selected for national service and i don't know whether to be happy about it or sad.
Eitherway, i'm glad i can serve the country a little only at the sad expense of a quarter of 2010. Arghh.

Anyways the real reason i'm blogging today is to inform everyone whose reading this post on an invitation to go to SAB's IU day and IU carnival event organized by the school's Interact Club. Its on the the 25th July, Saturday.
Starts at 10, ends at 3 in the afternoon, and the dress code is smart casual.

And there's also a futsal tournament, with limited places. Contact Jaarvis (012 5289091) or myself (012 6127993)
So please come. Haha.

Back to my busy life.

One of the Best days of the year

2009-06-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to say, just that today was a wonderful day, minus the go to school part and lotion-on-my-face part.
And i am most of all in love with the ball you guys gave me for my birthday!!
Once again, Thanks!

Camp in 2 weeks but in risk of chicken pox :(

2009-06-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

The last camp i'll ever go in my schooling life is in two weeks time, or rather next next friday.
Its for PBSM, at Port Dickson,
But my little brother has chicken pox!!!
And worst of all, the virus is now at its later stages, most contageous.
Sigh..
Paranoia is tightening its grip on me, and some more now my stupid eye is swelling up for God knows why.
My mom says even the vaccination wont stop the virus from infecting me, but i will get the weakened strain.
Eitherway, its chicken pox.
Suddenly i'm so afraid of diseases, with the H1N1 smothering the newspaper headlines every morning rubbing into my fear.
And i've developed a latest fear, only effective when combined together.
Fear of diseases+ Fear of Children= Fear of Children who have diseases.

Its scary because children are most vulnerable.
Argh.
Flustered and Frustrated.

That Familiar Feeling I left 2 Weeks Ago Is Back

2009-06-13T11:08:00.000-07:00

Yes School Stress!
Tonnes of homework dangling dryly by my study table waiting to be..completed
But that's gonna be a problem because there's just too much- and there is a stupid English oral test on Monday, i think which i'm yet to work on.

*Tears portion of hair out*
No matter how many times i tell myself not to do things last minute, i do the opposite. Manwyn's Nature.

And i'm starting to lose really expensive things.
First, my spectacles,
Then, my watch T.T
And my mom says i'm gonna lose one more expensive thing because unluckiness strikes thrice.
Hopefully, its not gonna be my life. U.U

And lately, i suddenly feel that every moment that we have in our lives has to be appreciated.

ASEAN scholarship Test (which i pretty much screwed up at)

2009-06-07T23:54:00.000-07:00

It was...devastating to take part in this little scholarship test that i took on Saturday and Sunday in Sunway Pyramid. This asinine test brutally exposed the ke-low quality-an standard of my studies with only three papers, Maths, English and General Ability.

I managed to meet a few new friends but we never exchanged any form of keep-in-touch information...and some of them were like "See you at the interview" and all i could say in return was "*chuckles* err..haha..guess so", because i was actually resisting the temptation to shout "WHAT you NUTS?! i'm not even passing this examination for God's sake". Oh well. Friends come and go.

Anyways on Sunday after the General Ability paper which ended at roughly 12, we had fun!
Jona, Kim, Fui teng, Yan Yuan(!!), Hoo Keen and I went for lunch at Kenny Rogers for lunch and had considerable trouble trying to get the numbers right to pay the bill. And that was because we all only had big change- 50 bucks notes, except well..the guys! haha. Oh wait, I think Kim also had perfect change. SO in other words it was Fui Teng and Yan Yuan who were struggling with big change. (rich people >.<)
The funny part was that Jona was scared to drink his water just because there was apparently a speck of dirt in his cup. But the undrank water later came useful when it was used to clean my 20cent coin that fell into the bowl of black pepper sauce.

After lunch, went Ice skating and we spent almost half an hour trying to drag Fui Teng and Yan Yuan into the skating rink. Eventually, everyone jumped in the rink including Hoo Keen, and while we all (except Kimberly) were barely five minutes into it and still frantically grabbing the sides learning to balance ourselves, Jona was skating away.
He's a pure genius!

Then one by one, we learned to skate.
In chronological order of learning to skate- Jona, Fui Teng, Yan yuan.

Yes...i know what you're thinking.
I DID NOT learn to skate. Got balance, fell a few times, but no forward movement.
WHich means i cannot skate. And so does Hoo Keen! Haha

Anyways after skating Jona and Hoo Keen went back, and the rest of us..or rather the three girls went shopping while i became spectator. And Kimberly almost almost dragged me into a female lingerie shop. O.O
Afterwards, we all got tired and sat on the FLOOR against a pillar in the middle of the shopping mall.
We all looked like beggars..so shame shame one. What to do so tired..but i sat on the floor the least because male ego couldn''t take it looking like a beggar XD
Here's some proof.

They all went back earlier, and i got stranded in the mall for about an hour alone..feels so scary to be alone and lonely.
I'm quite lazy to elaborate on the test, so for more info-log on to..Fui Teng's blog or Hoo Keen's blog. XP
Gotta go.

ABSOLUTE FUN at Perhentian Island

2009-06-03T09:12:00.000-07:00

Just came back from Pulau Perhentian and it was FUN FUN FUN!!
The perfect escapade from the hassle of city life..tomorrow physics class and i'm still blogging T.T
Anyways I'm on the brink of dying of exhaustion so i'll just put more pictures and talk less >.<
FUN!

A random 'sunglasses in bus' shot
Love the comfy bus

Sister, me, sister

My sister and I were taking this picture while waiting for the boat, but small sis fitted perfectly in the middle even though she was only background -.-

Lil bro and I just before boat ride to Perhentian

Our Hotel!

Rain, strong winds during the boat ride. Nearly died of freezing but thank god Che has this sweater that fitted perfectly for me.

They actually siphon dirty water from the nearby swamp into this pool. Disgusting.

Some airtime caught on film!

COusins, brother, all on air.

Playing Batu loncatan while trying to stay dry

One of my favourite games..'sepak beachball' played over a volleyball net with dad and uncles

Add maths semangat that only lasted for 10 minutes.

Awesome scenery.

Now you see kids, Now you see ice cream, Now you dont see money

Cute cousins and disgusting big sis

Sister, sister, me

My uncle caught some nemo fishes while snorkeling

Obscenity! My poor lil cousin

Karaoke time. U.U

The biggest ant i ever seen, 1 inch long, 1 cm wide

Proudly presenting the sandcastle i made out of my bare hands, sweat, and a spade

Another view of this humongous ant

Another view of this beautiful sandcastle (not)

Milipede!

Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya....tak jatuh ke tanah juga

Last day, last picture. Me, sis, sis

Final scenery shot

The Kuala Terengganu Airport aint too shabby..and i got a first hand view of the collapsed Sultan Zainal Abidin stadium! Freaky..

Flew back in this small 737

The only bad side of this trip,
incessant mosquito bites!
My dog died T.T
Itchy all over!
i'm blackened..
SOme stupid fishes actually bite when i snorkel.
SO many dead corals!

Oh yeah, and i actually got to swim next to a full-grown turtle in the deep sea..Rare!
Love Perhentian!!!

Thanks Guys for the wonderful gift..

2009-06-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

I really wanna thank Garry, Jaarvis, Ushane, and other friends (i'm not sure exactly who T.T ) who gave me this wonderful gift for my birthday..
Thanks!!

I find this ball too beautiful i have to take it from three diiferent angles...Love the ball!

FRONT

Side

top

I'll take good care of it!
Thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks!!!!!

Two Crazy Weeks Are Over!

2009-05-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

Finally Mid years are over!And the best of all...i can get back my sleeping hours..haha

I just learned from this exam that being ill-prepared until only the night before is catastrophic..especially the older you get XDI only slept like between an hour or two a night since last Wednesday till yesterday- and it kills.

Anyway i know i did very badly for my mid-years like never before.Cut the topic. Its time to talk Holidays!Haha

Its over
Its over
Its over
Its over

Time for the mid year two week break,
Pulau Perhentian,
birthday in 6 days time,
PbSM camp,
Futsal,
more futsal,
extra physics class (T.T),
and english homework(...).

The truth is i'm desperate to update somthing here so actually i have nothing to talk. Just that from my very recent experience, i wanna advice everyone out there to never never never ever study last minute for exams..Its really bad for health, confidence, and your studies XP

Anyways GOOD LUCK to Francesca in your Old Levels!Add oil Add oil!

Btw that day while i was getting too bored studying physics my brother took out this little prop that he dug out from the store room.And this was the result... (I'm a very very straight guy just in case you get any wrong notions after viewing these photos)

The Girl at the window

A 'stylish' pose

A 'cute' pose

It was all only for fun!

Its Been A REALLY long time

2009-05-02T13:12:00.000-07:00

Finally made contact with long lost friends form Hong Kong!
Luckily my dad made his way to Hong Kong and along the way got the msn address form you three!

I am so glad after six years of silence we finally make some form of contact-
To Francesca and Felicity
Friends forever!
We had nice talks just now and updated each other a lot- hopefully we'll continue to do so >.<
And it would be much easier since you both are online like...forever..haha
Hopefully we'll get to meet by the end of this year- really miss you two
And also to Gaby! Hope i'll get to catch you online too...

Till we meet again on msn ^^

Relax...relax...

2009-04-19T05:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry for not updating my blog in a long time..just that i'm having a really busy life these days...

Debate, Malacca (FUN!!!), and tomorrow...intervensi T.T
Anyways i don't think anybody is going to study for tomorrows intervensi..complete waste of time but good effort by the education ministry though.

Just came back from Malacca and it was one great trip with the wonderful homestay concept..I think i shall elaborate on that in my next post when i get the pictures..

But now to debate..Haha
Nothing much to talk..
Lost in the quarterfinals to SMK Sri Permata..ish
We were so confident about moving in to the semis until the judge said
"The motion for today which is 'First World Countries Should Accept Environmental Refugees'...FALLS"
THat was devastating as the government side..But nobody to blame here, i felt it was a good debate considering the one hour that we only HAD to prepare for it

It was a good experience though..endless discussions in Joshua's house on Monday night, Tuesday and Wednesday.
In fact, Josephine, Annabelle and myself slept over and discussed like mad people all the way till the wee hours of two in the morning O.O

Thats what happens what you get sickening topics to debate on like
'Should voluntary active euthanasia be legallised' or
'Should animal experimentation for human benefit be banned' or
'Should developmental aid be linked to reduction in emissions'

I mean, what the hell??
Those subjects are so controversial, so knowledge-oriented, etc
Nevertheless kudos and thanks to my great teammates, Joshua(2nd speaker) , Josephine(whip speaker), and Annabelle(reserve and great researcher).

Here are a few pictures,

Josephine apparently watching Joshua chucking something into his bag

Joshua talking with Annabelle about something i don't remember..haha

My hectic 'workdesk'

FUN-ny day.

2009-03-27T03:09:00.000-07:00

One of the funniest days in school without doubt..

THe whole PBSM board, members, ajks managed to pull one great surprise off our beloved Sergeant CHow Hoo Keen!

So funny just now because in the morning CHow actually thought everyone had forgotten all about his birthday..
MOrning morning at perhimpunan Chow made a desperado shout that earth hour day is his birthday, yet nobody layan-ed him, all walking pass him like nothing was going on.
That was a really funny scene..HAha

And apparently throughout the whole day Chow was a little emo in class (!!!!!)

But come on Hoo Keen, realistically, NO ONE woould forget your birthday at all.
The PBSM members, girls especially, have been planning the surprise and it went exactly as planned!
(Congrats) >.<

Anyways HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY CHOW HOO KEEN!
AND...i would like to stress to everyone reading this post,
Don't forget to turn off your lights tomorrow!
Support Earth Hour people!

ONE WEEK late but...never too late....Happy Birthday Su Ann!

2009-03-21T23:00:00.000-07:00

On the 14th March we had a celebration for Su Ann's bion the 18th rthday, which is actually on the 18th March, Wednesday.
Obviously, we had a lot of fun!
Su Ann, Garry, Michelle, Kahmini, Jaarvis, Yee Seen, Kimberly, Kai Shek, Manwyn, were there to celebrate that incredible day...
I think its a little too late to make a big story out of it so i guess i'll just include a little video montage here which i took about a whole day to compile..enjoy

Oh one more thing...watch this preferably on a small screen, 2 megapixel only >.-
(and the effect is better with the volume)

Sorry...its a little laggy also..

I've never seen IT before so big..

2009-03-07T04:12:00.000-08:00

This morning,7th of March 2009, i witnessed a wonder i never imagined so big..
i saw it so beautiful,
So touching,
So strong,
So powerful,
So unconditional,

What i saw was the spirit of PBSM and kawad the girls had, and also the other AJKs.
The lengths you all have went to for this marching competition were just unbelievably far..
Hoo Keen's speech, opened me up to the sacrifices every single one of the girls had made to attend the practices, and also all the hardwork Hoo Keen and Serene have put in...
I know now that all of you girls have made great sacrifices of undescribable magnitudes....

And none of these can happen, without that true attribute i see yearning and eagerly dancing with glory inside your eyes,
And that is your spirits to win this competition, or rather, your unconditional love for PBSM.

A truly wonderful speech by Hoo Keen that left many in tears,
though i must admit i was fighting to hold mine back, saw me to the brilliance of you girls, all 30 of you, and also Hoo Keen, Serene, and the other ajks playing a part in this kawad competition.

One more thing, Hoo Keen, NO, you're not selfish, you are a selfless, committed, and loyal servant of the PBSM board 08/09, a true seargent ranked ketua seksyen kawad.

I salute every single one of you,
Full credits to everyone taking part,
'The question is not who is going to let us, but who is going to stop us, and the fact is- no one can.'
THe spirit of PBSM shall prevail..

Missing 8 days of school in February and its killing me.

2009-02-23T07:14:00.001-08:00

8 days of chess tournament, 4 in zone, 4 in state.
That is crap.
I'm missing 8 days of school in a tiny month of February,
along with it missing,
: Tons of homework
More homework
Homework
Oral presentations
Ceramahs
Literature presentation
Studies
Latest happenings in school
homework

Isn't that just a lot?
The pressure i get everyday going to school just trying to catch up, catch up, and catch up.
So difficult to be in form 5.. T.T

But nevertheless, I promise, i shall be back.. eventually.

Thanks to all my friends who have been helping me with this catching up thing and also brightening my life in school..You guys/girls rock!

Mega busy and tiring week of CNY..but very FUN!

2009-01-31T07:37:00.000-08:00

Its been one week full of activities..Chinese New Year..
Many visits, reunions, outings, parties, and lion dance!

This is truly life as i imagine..all fun and no work,
I must never forget this year's wonderful chinese new year..
Probably one of the best ever.

SUNDAY, family reunion dinner

MONDAY, Also family reunion lunch and neighbour house dinner

TUESDAY, lunch at home to relatives, parents' office in the evening, party at friends' house at night

WEDNESDAY,lion dance to perform at some random bungalow in the afternoon, gambling in the evening at aunties' place and dinner

THURSDAY, helping out in temple whole morning and afternoon and non stop gambling at night in nephew's place

FRIDAY,Two movies at pavillion with 4m+ kai shek + joo ling and night open house

TODAY, function in evening doing lion dance and jason's house party

TOMORROW, lion dance again to perform at whole neighbourhood in the morning and afternnon

Isn't that just busy? HAHA
AND i have not started a single homework.
Must add, that just now jason's party was kinda fun, despite the last minute decision to finally go. As usual, gambling, gossiping, and..finding out a few things..XD
Thanks to everyone for making this year's Chinese new year such a special one!!!

Picture of my cousin's cute dog on Monday..so cute..

Some random shot of a mosque from the lion dance van

Sneakily took a picture of the three of them at pavillion

Yee Seen took a picture when i wasn't ready..

The drinks we all ordered at a hong kong style restaurant..pretty fancy

Girls at Jason's house..(Sabians only)

Head prefect posing..haha

Guys at Jason's house..(also Sabians only)

CNY, a reprieve from hell.

2009-01-24T06:22:00.000-08:00

Form 5 is like.. haha
Tip top stressful.
Of homeworks and assignments and this and that and everything that will just deprive you of your life you want it to be.

Now thank God there is CNY holidays to save me! Woohoo!!
But from what happened the last three weeks, i think this year is not the year to play around like last year anymore,
No more words like

'happy-go-lucky' or
'carefree' or
'lepak only la' or
'that can wait'
*For more examples please refer to any form five student*
HAHA..

I'm sure all my form 5 friends would agree to that.
Right?

Teachers are so difficult to deal with these days.
And worst of all i don't know why but everyday i'm like stressing out and getting so ill-tempered in school lately.
I just feel like smashing my table in class on an hourly basis. T.T

Thank Chinese New Year Holidays for saving my life. (and all my pens' lives)
Happy CHinese New Year to you reading this! And all my friends who just so happen to only read the last line of this post!
Note : I don't blame you because we all are in such a hurry these days, especially when you're form 5. XD

Truly a savior, CNY.

Just in remembrance to last year's year of the rat, Aren't these hamsters cute?
My brother's pets. XD

Never too late for 2009.

2009-01-03T11:45:00.000-08:00

The 2008 Manwyn.
A little late for new year announcements but, i really feel like.

2008.
A year in my life i will never forget. How filled it was with ups and downs, experiences i've never went through, and friends as close as they can ever be.

Actually i'm trying my best not too sound sentimental here since its 4 in the morning and i don't wanna get all emotional and stuff. Haha.

Back to the topic, i will never ever forget the wonderful 2008. As always, what happened in that year all through will stick in me forever. Even when shifting from st.johns to here i have not dreamt of such a beautiful year i would have in aminuddin.

And the best thing that ever happened to me, was my friends. 4 maju particularly.
Garry, Ushane, Yee seen, Fui teng, Elena, Michelle.
How funny it would be, and how happy, to bring those sweet memories we had together.
Those experiences, which, were sometimes just outright innocent to, a little..evil. XD
But thats what memories are for.
Well, enough of 2008. I love you 2008. I hope history records it well.

These are some of the school life memories i have for 2008.

HELP college debate

Just Garry mp3-ing in the classroom

4 Maju.

Our school's campfire night.

Kai Shek's birthday party. PLaying Pool.

Kem Bersepadu- First night.

Thats one little cliff i'm sure we all wont forget.

Garry, Ushane, and i fooling around during repelling activity.

Ushane, tzen Hong, Garry, and i trying out some new fashion.

I won't forget the day you guys gangbanged me to sign the crap out of my leg..i mean legS. XD

Just one of those Pavillion outings with 4M...and Kai shek. Hahaha.

I will cherish all that we had...Goodbye...

Last day of school to Pavillion. That was fun.

Now, 2009.

Plainly, i have no resolutions at all for the new year.
First of all, i don't believe in resolutions because...
I've failed in many previous ones.
And, scientifically scientists in England have proven that resolutions actually do some harm. They said that the mental pressure on the drive to fulfill the resolutions cause many to falter. Whatever. Hee..

I just want to greet the year, hope for a smooth and wonderful school life cause it may be the last, and of course, improve myself.
I felt like i totally wasted the two months holidays but i guess thats why we actually call them 'holidays' XD.

Hello 2009!

This is too much.

2008-12-24T08:36:00.000-08:00

DISGUSTING.

IN my dhal!!! -its a cockroach
Just when i thought i was seriously running out of things to blog, here is one i'll never forget. A nightmare of my life.
Two nights ago, i was home alone and starting to watch a movie. The Transporter, although i watched it many times before.

Then, my mom and two sisters and brother came home. Mom brought back roti naan for me from a nearby restaurant, knowing i was hungry.
Yes, nothing like roti naan with dhal while watching a movie at night. Enjoyable even thinking of it.
So i immediately rushed at preparing my supper, not wanting to miss a second of the action-packed movie. I hurriedly poured the sweet smelling dhal into a bowl, chuck those naans onto a plate, grabbed a fork and spoon and got straight to the tv.
Hell yes i was enjoying it. A movie. Roti naan. Dhal. Water. I mean...what else right?
Then in the bowl of dhal was a black thing which i of course took it as a vegetable. It was kinda big. So i decided to see if that vegetable would be edible or is it just for seasoning the dhal.
So, i dug it up with my fork. And got a bloody shock of my life. (!!!!!!!)

What i thought was a vegetable in my dhal turned out to be,
A FULL SIZE DEAD ADULT COCKCROACH.
In my food which i was eating.

Thank God i didn't panic. But mom got freaking pissed and went back to the restaurant to get a fair argument. So they refunded. 80+ bucks. And made them guarantee that any medical bills they will pay for.

But what the hell a cockcroach in my food! I don't even dare to go near one. And now right there in my food. Yuck!

Tagged by dear Yee Seen....

2008-11-30T10:18:00.000-08:00

Relationship with her :
Lover. Girlfriend. Companion. Everything.

Your 5 impressions of her:
-Very smart
-Stunningly Hot XD
-Skillful in every aspect of life
-Caring young lady
-The most wonderful girl i've ever known

The most memorable thing she has done for you :
Open the door to her heart...

If she becomes your lover :
She is! *melting*

If she becomes your enemy you will :
Hate myself for life if it ever happens

What is it that you want to tell her now :
I love you! NOw and Forever!

How would you find people around you, will feel about you now :
People : Why so lovesick?
Manwyn : Because i love her...

The characters of myself that i love are :
My name is Manwyn. Haha. I don't know seriously.

For the people who cares and likes you, say something to them :
I really appreciate you all of you....Be in life forever!

Pass this quiz 10 people you want to know more about:
1. Yee Seen
2. Garry
3. Calvin
4. Ushane
5. Fui Teng
6. Kai Shek
7. Bryan
8. Carmen (big sis)
9. Ken Vin
10.Carven (small sis)

Who is number 6 having a relationship with :
No one. Haha. Not yet i mean.

If number 7 and number 10 are together, will it be good for them :
Erm....erm....apparently not according to what happened sometime in the past XD

What is number 2 studying about :
Ke-Garry-an. Just kidding. Form five next year.

When is the last time you had a chat with number 3 :
Like 10 minutes ago. I knew him since i was a baby. Haha.

What kind of music does number 8 like :
Random modern music. Changing all the time. Thats my 19 year old sis.

Does number 1 have any siblings :
One younger sister.

Will you woo number 4 :
People: Eww Manwyn since when you turned gay?
Manwyn: NO! i was just tagged and the answer is NEVER! Ushane is my good friend..

How about number 7 :
Nope. Asking me twice wont convince me into the gay fraternity. Haha.

Is number 4 single :
Yes! He's vacant! Girls go check him out quick! Before you lose your chance...

What is the surname of number 5 :
Woo....Woo Fui Teng. Sounds kinda cool.

Does number 5 & 9 get along well :
Erm...they are miles from even knowing each other.

Where is number 2 studying at :
SAB. Sekolah Aminuddin Baki.

Where does number 9 live :
5 houses away from mine.

What colour does number 4 like :
Orange because its the colour of the basketball. XD

What is number 10 doing now :
Sleeping. Haha.

I've been Such a Tourist in KL.

2008-11-29T21:05:00.000-08:00

I live in Kuala Lumpur. Well almost. In Ampang, Selangor actually but KL is of course a place we go everyday. I study in KL. For the past 10 years.

And guess what i did?
You wouldn't believe it.
I acted like a tourist!
Hahaha.

Often we see tourist admiring big buildings in our country and taking pictures of them. And thats exactly what i did. I don't know why i did it but it was just instinct that i pulled out my phone and started taking photos of these buildings.

These pictures were actually taken by me myself. XD

KLCC in the day.

Court Complex. My dad brought me there to see what happens in courts.

A closer view.

I thought this is a nice view of a mosque....

KLCC at night...>.<

See what i mean.....OMG.

You're my Everything..

2008-11-17T20:06:00.000-08:00

Dear....i love you (You look very cute in this picture btw XD)

Yee Seen... She's the greatest girl i ever knew..
I love you...And i'll love you for as long as time exists..
I am ever so lucky to find you dear, you're a gift fron the heavens..
And i am sorry, if at times that you have felt i did not show my appreciation well enough for you..
But i will always, always love you..
You're caring, loving, understanding, beautiful..you're everything..

Sometimes i really wonder dear..what have i done to ever deserve you..
You're every woman and girl in the world to me..and i cannot imagine life without you..
Since April 18 to now, i realise that everything you gave to me, your love, kindness, care, everything, came straight from your heart..
There's nothing more understanding in this world than you, and forever i will hold on to you..for better or for worse..the reason is because..
I love you...

You have been and will always be my angel, my soul, and i will invest all my love in you..for eternity..
The so many things you have done for me when we are together..
I don't think i could have survived form four without you..
You were my advisor when i was lost in studies,
You were my best friend when all was dark,
You were my companion when only my shadow followed me,
And i thank God that i found you..

There will never be anyone like you in this world dear..
And...really.. I love your talent in music!
Piano, Guitar, and you can even sing!
I loved it when you actually played the song 'I'm yours' on your guitar and sang it to me...wonderful dear...
You've got talent in everything...

I love you~ These three words have my life in them..

We shattered the Fottress, We brought down the Bridge.

2008-10-26T11:34:00.000-07:00

VS

The stage was set.
Stamford bridge. Chelsea vs Liverpool.
The two only unbeaten teams in the premier league engage in a furious battle.
A Top of the table clash.
Played at the fottres they call it.
True enough, Chelsea has not lost there for 86 consecutive home games.

Stamford Bridge.

VS

Captain Marvel (John Terry) vs Captain Marvel..also..(Steven Gerrard)
Gerrard leads a fearless team to Stamford Bridge to justify their title credentials.

But records are set to be broken, and after 4 years and 8 months of solid results at home, Liverpool finally burst the bubble. And i am so happy it was the team i supported all my life that broke the record!
Xabi Alonso's moment of magic in the tenth minute with a strong left foot shot that deflected wickedly off new signing Jose Bosingwa of Chelsea was all that was needed to see off Chelsea's impressive home record.
Have to admit though, that throughout the game, Chelsea kept substantial pressure on Liverpool's defence. It just wasn't Chelsea's day as their attacks lacked flair and inspiration. Ashley Cole though, came painfully close to equalising but lost his balance at the crucial moment, with his shot being tamely dispersed to the cheering Liverpool fans. Anelka was virtually unheard of while Lampard and Deco gave headaches to the Liverpool defence on several occasions.
Also, Man of the Match Jamie Carragher was a solid rock in the heart of the Liverpool defence with his no-nonsense tackling and excellent marksmanship.

End of the day, Liverpool emerged victorious with the slightest of margins, a 1-0 away win at the Bridge. The season is far from over. As they say, 'you may have won the battle, but the War is still undecided'.
Romp on Liverpool!

Alonso quoted before the game, 'We'll bust Chelsea at the Bridge'
And he snatched the glory by sneaking one, and the only one, past Peter Cech!

Chelsea 0-1 Liverpool.
Good Luck to Chelsea in the title race. . .

When what i Thought i saw Isn't IT anymore..

2008-10-22T07:37:00.000-07:00

I...don't know how to say this. Sometimes we say to ourselves 'Why do such things happen in this world because of some people?' when we see something unbelievable.

I never saw it coming..
I thought i knew you.
I thought you were just as true as any friend would be.
I thought i could live with it for not all humans are perfect.
I thought you were..a friend.
I thought i knew it all.

I was naive.
I was ignorant.
I never saw it coming.

How? Why? I knew you, or so i thought, for a very long time. Why would you do such a thing? It does not directly involve me but come on. You're smart enough. You are smart enough to know how offended, betrayed, and incensed i feel about this.

It was your classmates you played their lives with. It was the people that have been inside the same four walls as you every school day. It was..my friends.
Why did you do this?
How could you do this?
I am disappointed. Very. Sorrow. Bitterness.

And now..please please don't even try to use me as a way back to them. I know i am passive, not directly involved, and on top of it all, i never show how i feel about the things that spill out of your tongue.
But when i don't show, doesn't mean i don't feel. I don't show simply because..i knew you too long. I never want to hurt any friend by the things i think, or say, especially when it comes to a long-known friend. Thats why i don't show.
So please, don't manipulate and exploit me just because i am like that.

I know your attitude, just that i never say.
You like to exploit the weak, and bask in your ego over the strong.
I always knew that. I never say that. Isn't it hurtful, now that i have said it?

I know you always think that i am the dreamy type of person. Blur. Unable to cope with things happening around. You have always thought like that. Yes i know. You look down at me in those terms. Just that i never said it.

I have always felt agigated by the constant vulgarity in your language. Your seemingly endless capacity of watching you know what i mean. Your frequent looking down at people when they are just that bit lesser than you in a field of interest.
I have always thought that way, just that i never say.

I have always been moved by the words you simply throw at your friends. At what you say about them at random simplicity without even filtering it through your head. Yes i know. You are a direct person. You tell them off straight in the face. But let me tell you a new word you might wanna add to your already packed capabiltity of vocab.
Its called LIMIT. You never respected that word. Just as you do to your friends. I know all these, just that i never say.

Isn't it hurtful? Tell me. Isn't it hurtful? Now that i spilled everything.

The moral here, is that you take things for granted. You took your friendship for granted. You took their respect for you as a friend for granted. Your EGO and COMPLACENCY has overshadowed your logic for respect. Respect for your dear friends.

Now you made a mess of it. Find your own way back. Leave me out of it. I can assure you, its not going to be easy this time. Or will you just take it for granted and hope they'll forgive you some day? Its all up to you. But look where you have put yourself in today. Messed up. Totally.

I am sorry for what i said in this post. But i feel it is the best for you. And for all your...well....'friends'.

'Why did such a thing happen in this world because of you?'

Tagged by...Yee Seen.

2008-10-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

Dear Garry,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when durig the first of May in your closet and I saw you sit on my avocado plant. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that i did a sex change. I'm returning the couch cushions to you, but I'll keep your suicide notes as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confessions about a new life as a clone.

Good Luck on your short term leave from jail.
-Manwyn-

This is fun man. LOL. Sorry Garry. XD

A beautiful collection of them.

2008-10-07T01:44:00.000-07:00

This is by far the most complicated post i have produced so far XD
Anyways, these are a few of the many pictures of Me! From a newborn, to now.
Preferably, start reading from the bottom..

Form four..now!! And i got together with her this year..I love you Yee Seen!

2007, 15 years old. Am i cute? haha..

Late form two and not looking too innocent anymore.

Early form two, grown a lot. Haha

Form one and looking black. Too much beach at Pangkor.

12 years old! and a shoulder ride for my sister.

Standard five, 2003.

10 years old..still looking cute. hee..

Late eight, prizes!!

Early eight, doing nothing but looking innocent. xP

Seven years old and first day of school!!

Five half, with both my sisters.

Four, angry faced. XD

Three! and the first picture of me walking.

Nearly two, at a swimming pool.

One year-old, learning to walk.

Newborn Manwyn..date of birth-28/05/1992

Its holidays!

2008-09-29T06:48:00.000-07:00

I was cute okay...that was a pic of me when i was..erm..
I can't remember but about 2 years old i think.

Its just one week holidays but i feel this has come at the wrong time.
Just when i was about to gear up for my finals and here comes a week of holidays. Ish.
Naturally, i get very very lazy when its holidays time. All i do is, well there's this saying i use for myself when i'm in a lazy mood.

'Eat, sleep, shit'
Thats all.
I find it quite true though although at times the word 'play' should be there.
But.. i guess i'll just enjoy what's thrown at me for the time being right?
9 days of holidays. OH YEAH.

A War of words.

2008-09-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

When people say 'war of words' it means arguing right? Okay. Right. But for this post, I shall instil a new meaning into the term, 'war of words'.
In the 21st century, where every person, well nearly, has a computer..
Cut the crap.

What i mean when i say war of words here is actually the 'silent' world of blogging. Lol.. Everyone has new things to say in their blogs at least every week and its really funny to see people in class bugging each other to update blogs.
It's funny, it's fun, it's really cool.

I mean, if i don't update my blog for only like say..8 days? Then the next thing i know is that 'people' like Ushana, Yee Seen and Fui Teng will be all over me asking for an update. Keep it up mates cause that's probrably the best form of motivation for me to keep in touch with the blogging world. Lol...
Friends are still the greatest set of people in the world you could get. Of course besides our family..

So...Long live the war of words in the world of blogging cause that's what makes me look forward to onlining every..day. Nearly.
Haha.
Clearly, i am running dry of ideas to blog about. I mean, look at the title of this post..Does it make sense anyway? lol..Its does of course just that..I AM running out of ideas to blog about. Ish Ish Ish.
So, can anyone out there give me a source of inspiration to blog about? Sobs...(emo-ly) XD

Nothing to say.

2008-09-11T08:00:00.000-07:00

This blogging world is starting to turn very scary. Everybody is starting to have posts that desribe each friend specifically and show their appreciation! Omg i'm getting some big time peer pressure here. Haha.

I feel like doing one too but i guess i would just like maybe not do it because....well....everyone else has done it? lol....Yea i guess so.. Too lazy to follow trend here..hee

Erm...maybe not so. I'm actually working on something for my friends to make it into a post but this will take time. And whatever it is shall remain top secret till it is posted here. But i hope that i will finish it soon. This thing requires a lot a lot of thinking. Sakit kepala weh.

But today something really funny happened in school.
Fui Teng actually just found out that there is a week's holiday in September. And even thought the next holiday is the end year two months holiday. You are seriously funny Fui Teng...Got all ecstatic about it and i'm quite sure it completely cheered your day up right? Haha(Annoyingly)... We shall see how cheerful you are gonna be in school tomorrow..

Anyways i don't know why i always emo these days especially when it comes towards the ending of school time. I know actually but being me, i would of course tell no one the reason but Manwyn.
Lines from Goodbye, Air Supply XD
'You would never ask me why, my heart is so disguised,
I just can't live a lie anymore..'
Just being a little boy who likes to emo at times without letting my friends know Thats all..

What Does 4M actually look like?

2008-09-06T17:29:00.000-07:00

This is one space we are going fill in next year's magazine.
So.....look out for it!!

4 Maju.
Yup. This is where it all happens. Everything about our friendship in 4M was discovered, groomed, and cherished together right here. This is the place that keeps me looking forward to going to school everyday. A place where i have learnt a lot.
About friends.
About..(reluctantly)..studies,
About..life..whether its fair or not ( to Fui Teng: *Winks*)
About..what we will most probably see out there when we step out of school
About more than what it looks like, a classroom.

And i have to say, 4M makes the phrase, 'in life, there is more to learn than what you do in a classroom' sound like baby language. Everything happens in 4M. It is the place where our friendship flames and circles everywhere.

A lot has happened here and we have about two months and a half before....school ends. So, shall we just hope that Pn. Karimah will remain 4M as 5M, or is it really going to happen? Lets hope that our class will remain intact till the end of time. I mean, till the end of our time in schooling life.
Our time in school isn't much left. Only one year and a few months, at least for most of us. This year is the second last. We have 9 years of schooling on our back. So lets hope God, and school administration, and maybe some other pihak, will give us a beatiful ending to go off with. 4M is a wonderful semi-ending isn't it? Of course we have a long more way to go in form five but looking at it in an overall scale, it is actually very short.

For now lets enjoy 4M! Cheers to whatever happened, happens, and is going to happen in our class!
Dedicated to jewells of 4M : Garry, Ushana, Joshua, Yee Seen, Fui Teng, Michelle, Elena,
and anyone else from our class.
Colours of the rainbow..lol (Quote : Fui Teng)

4M, thank you!!

2008-09-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

This goes to all the precious members of class 4M, Garry, Josh, Ushana, Yee Seen, Fui Teng, Elena, Michelle, and a few others more. .

Thank you guys!! and girls. . .I mean, this is only my second year in SAB and i have been made to feel that i am much much happier here in SAB socially compared to st.johns. . .
I could not imagine a better life than one in 4M, with special friends like you all! Garry my 'gay' partner...Joshua :smartest boy in the world....Ushana-Sentimental and special, Yee Seen: I love you!...Fui teng-Life is still very unfairrrr...Elena-Innocence is written all over you..Michelle-of Handwriting, mirrors and hardwork.
This is a combination of such wonderful friends that have helped me gain confidence in life as a Sabian. You all are special...sweet....outright true friends.

The funny thing is that nearly all of us are bloggers (relatively noobs) and we get eager to read each other's blogs everyday. Ups and downs are faced together as friends right... So now we all have a common fever...BLOGGING fever!! lol..
Its fun to see how we encourage each other everyday in classes to keep on surviving the dreadful lessons..and how we influence each other into doing good (peer pressure)-If you know what i mean...and how we care for one another by advicing and consulting each other..
Being friends, we watch each other grow into adults, learn, compare, and finally benefiting from that. This is a truly fated friendship i cherish. .

I wanna say that in my ten years of schooling, this is the best. Life would be so different if i were in another class. Thank God, Thank you all, and last but not least the school, for putting us in one class..

''Life is like the wind, sometimes you go up and sometimes you go down''
Quote, Garry.
"Be it up or down, i know that somewhere, friends like you guys are there to share''.
Quote, Manwyn ><

For You, Yee Seen. .

2008-09-05T08:52:00.000-07:00

This song from air supply, is glorified with such meaningful lyrics. . .
I dedicate the lyrics of this song to you. . .dear...hope you like it. . ><

Yours Truly
Sometimes when i look at you,
I wonder why you're here with me,
I'm not the perfect lover and
There's other things i'd like to be

You never ask for my applause,
I want you to know,

I am yours truly yours,
because because because,
I'm yours truly yours, truly yours. .

i'll never leave you all alone,
To far away to touch your skin,
I don't know where the story goes,
or even if it did begin,

I go to the ball,
You sweep the floor in every way,

I am yours truly yours,
because because because,
I'm yours truly yours,
because, because, because,
I'm yours truly yours, truly yours. .

So softly you tell me,
In words that will haunt me,
as long as the light from the stars,
Fill your eyes..

You never ask for my applause,
I want you to know,

I'm yours truly yours, truly yours. . .

Its still Shut even with the Clock Ticking.

2008-09-04T08:48:00.000-07:00

Whats still shut even with the clock ticking?
Well, the textbooks are still shut even with final exams looming. Nearly.
Not that its actually time to get worried about the finals, its just that i'm worried about the prolonging syllabus. And the difficulty.
Throughout my life, THAT is exactly what that causes me to study last minute for every single exam. So now i'm being smart by worrying about the cause of the problem and not the problem itself right? *clap clap*. . . . . . ok ok cut the crap.
I'm serious here. Really really getting worried about the syllabus because it is long and we have only two months to finals. By the time i start learning i have to start revising the previous chapters. But how? I just won't budge.
With such strong competition in the class, it adds even more to the pain. Worry. Embarrasingly, i have to admit that i get very very emo whenever any subject teacher comes in with that crappy MODULE thing and make us do it. I mean, come on teachers!! THe final exams is only two more months, you have not completed the syllabus not to mention your unprefferable styles of teaching, and now what are you doing? Making me feel even worse by plunging me into a maze crowded with 'i've-seen-these-before' questions. I'm feeling lost in my studies! Questions from previous chapters really irritate me because i don't know how to answer them despite knowing that not so long ago it was supposed to be peanuts for me. Memory loss. It really boils me to the point of maximum frustration.
Buck up Malaysian teachers! Don't always follow 'skema' and procedures as though you guys are some kind of rusted out robots. Be flexible. Gain your students' interest in whatever you are teaching. Gain my interest. Help me. I'm losing it. Falling apart.
Don't give the module thing anymore. It kills me. Makes me emo. That is my point today. So to all classmates reading this, i just have to say i really get into bad moods if the module thing comes. It feels like crap.
And for the final exams, i'll try this time not to study last minute. Yes. I just said TRY.
P.S. I really feel that the school education system only serves one purpose. That is to complete the syllabus. It could be the fault of the system, or teachers, or students or whoever. But that's what i see. Its really saddening.

The Storm is Coming!

2008-09-03T08:04:00.000-07:00

It isn't exactly the storm i think you are thinking of. This storm is special. Unique. New. Existent only in the 21st century.
I call it the BLOGGING STORM.
Oh yeah.
Recently most of my close friends started having their own blogs e.g. Ushana, Joshua, bla bla bla
I mean, only 4 months ago and all of us had nothing but Friendster profiles, facebook (some), myspace (some) BUT now, all the attention have been diverted to blogging. Wow. How quickly things change these days.
Its cool though knowing that somewhere somehow my friends will express their opinions. That way we get to know more about each other. Find out more about each other. Have more topics of discussions in school. And, well, thoughts and feelings that are only passed on to each other comfortably in words. Yes. When Words are Different From Speech.
This is one crack of a journey awaiting. The world of blogging is calling. Good luck to Everyone and happy blogging!
I'll be watching. . . lol

I'm Bored. What Should This be about?

2008-08-25T08:05:00.000-07:00

Seriously i'm starting to run out of ideas of things to do online these days. Obviously, i'm not the biggest fan of online games being Manwyn, and i try to limit myself to innocenct explorations on the web.
Thanks to that i really don't know what to do now besides taking refuge in this blogging place. I feel safe here. I feel as though i can say anything here. Which of course includes me spilling out my boredom here. Haha. B.O.R.E.D.
Oh yes by the way i am quite proud to say that i have finished all necessary homework today, right now, at least for what's due tomorrow. The last time i really did not have to worry about handing in an assignment the next day was probably months ago. Form four....i didn't know it would be this hectic. Especially in co-curriculum. Studies? nope. Only when there's exam.

I'm bored. This is probably the worst case of boredom i'm facing. By the way i have a little question that may need answers for all the form four students out there reading this.
Don't you guys agree its a busy busy year? Compared to last year especially.
And i really don't want to even think what awaits next year. Gulp..
I've got nothing else to say. Thanks for letting me waste your time though. Night. XD

Air Supply is my favourite. . .

2008-08-23T02:57:00.000-07:00

Graham Russell.
Composes most of their songs and joins Russell for duets.

Russell Hitchcock.
Greatest singer i've ever known. Sings nearly all of Air Supply's songs.

Great times together in the good old days.

Graham and Russell.

A Picture taken from their official website.

A Short Introduction. (Source-Air Supply's official website)

In 1975, Graham Russell & Russell Hitchcock met on May 12th the first day of rehearsals for ‘Jesus Christ Superstar’ in Sydney, Australia. They became instant friends with their common love for the Beatles and of course singing.
After the shows performance at 10:30, they would play pizza parlors, coffee bars and night clubs with just one guitar and two voices. They quickly gained a reputation for great harmonies and for original songs that Graham was writing constantly. They made a demo on a cassette, of two songs, ‘Love and Other Bruises’ and ‘If You Knew Me’ and took it to every record company in Sydney. Everyone turned it down, but one - CBS Records who admired their unique style. They made a single in one afternoon and it shot to number one on the National charts. Air Supply was born!

Air Supply is officially my favourite singing group. Anyone who knows me well enough should know this as well. Call me old-fashioned, or out-of-date, or sentimental, or whatever, but Air Supply is one band i am madly obssesed with. And i am here today to explain why.

1. The Soothe from their music

Songs from Air Supply are all extremely soothing. Goodbye, Every Woman In The World, All Out of Love are among them, to name a few. All of Air Supply's songs are stringed to near perfection, or if its safe to say, perfection. Well, kudos to Graham Russell who composed most of their songs and of course, these songs were brought to prominence by Russel Hitchcock who sang nearly all the songs with occasional duets with Graham here and there. Their songs have this somehow, strange power, of giving you the feeeling of joy, of what i would call 'safe ecstasy'. Smooth, addictive, powerful, yet clean and positive music is what i call Air Supply. Generally categorised as slow pop rock, Air Supply's music have greatly influenced the development of rock music in the seventies, if i'm not mistaken (which i have to admit i have a strong dislike towards). Yet, they have managed to keep that brilliant piece of sentiment in each song with a frequent supple blend of modern(fast-paced) music style. The type of soothe that simply drags me into subconsciousness as my mind basks in the glory of their music.

2. The Angel's voice is from Russell.

Russell Hitchcock has a kind of rare uniqueness in his voice. It isn't too deep and also not high-pitched. He has the ability to raise and lower his voice to all kinds of tones in perfect melody. Pure beauty presents itself in his voice. Russell can simply transform any song into a heaven's creation. Angelic. He has truly showed this in another single, 'Someone Who Believes In You' and it is as though the type of song you wanna play in the check-in lobby of heaven, if there was one.

3. Listening is Loving Its Meaning.

Lyrics. Air Supply's songs have lyrics that touches you at the bottom of the heart. They are meaningful, and are mostly love songs. There is this problem in modern music when the singers' voices seems to be muffled at times by the banging of background music. In Air Supply, their lyrics are almost spelled out with its pure meaning left to listeners to enjoy. It is as though they are telling love stories in their singing, and what more can you ask when the lyrics are carried across with an Angel's voice and stringed-to-perfection melody?

4. Music is all about contrast.

The contrast in Graham's and Russell's voice is just about the best thing in the world of music you can think of. Graham has a deep and smooth voice while Russell's is medium-pitched smooth. What is so great about this is when they take turns to sing in the same song, when you get the contrast, and what happens after that is magic. Brilliance. Its even better than a guy and girl sort of duet. Its something like they are taking turns to 'bombard' your ears with such smoothness and melody in perfect balance. Something like the Yin and Yang thingy. Nature. They show that music is all about contrast and balance.

All in all, i would say that Air Supply is probably a band that God sent down from heaven to play Angel-quality music for His children. Enjoy it. I hope anyone reading this can do me a favour ny listening to at least one of Air Supply's song. I would recommend 'All Out of Love'. That song topped the list in Light and Easy's 105.7FM 500 best songs ever. 'All Out of Love' was voted number one by Malaysians on that radio channel. Air Supply is simply the best. Legendary.

No Pictures. Fun is there though.

2008-08-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

erm.... Where do i start?
I mean, i have been missing from my blog since, . . . . . . . 29July?!
That, i know my fellow bloggers, is an unacceptable cardinal sin in the world of blogging.
unforgivable. punishable.
OK OK cut the crap!
This is what i want to say. . . . .

18 July, -Pavillion
OPERATION : M_O_V_I_E_ S_T_O_R_M
Can somebody out there help me cut the crap!? Gosh. . .

Anyways, on the 18 of August, i went to Pavillion with six other classmates from school.
And, well, we watched a movie. No. Wait. Two Movies. yeah.
'Dark Knight' and 'Mummy 3'.
So what? normal teenage stuff right. Go out with friends. Watch a movie or two. Go home. ABC.
We did a few crazy things though.
Have anyone watched the show 'Million 2 One' on Discovery?
and then there's this episode where they did the who's-gonna-look-what-i'm-seeing-UP-there-with-me test.
Yeah.

An experiment where they make a few people walk into an empty area and make them look up. Then the humour is when you see how many passer-byers actually get 'busybody' and look up as well with the whole group of 'actors'.
Trust me, try it and you'll laugh your brains off when it works.

And yes, that was what we did in Pavillion.
Something like 7 of us became the actors.
One recorded with phone camera.
Two spectate.

And it was crazy. Funny. I would leave the rest to your imagination.
And of course, going to Pavillion, She went also. Her. I'm getting so lovestruck even typing this!-
Well, of course, things what bf's and gf's do were done.
Unforgettable day.

The only downfall, was, that, i have to embarrasingly admit, we lunched at KFC. wtv. So much for my ego. lol. If there was one. Anyway. too lazy to blog anymore. Late. Sleep.
Manwyn, reporting in to normal life. Nite.

Ultimately, i have to say that for the pav outing thing, no pictures. Fun is there though.

The Kai Shek birthday party.

2008-07-27T07:14:00.000-07:00

'Briefing' by Birthday boy Kai Shek
Me, Kugar as a Team plus Kai Shek
Why am i even blogging about this? haha. Probably because the last one was on July 9.
So here's my story for this post, Once upon a time on July 26 1992....
No No wrong.
I just wanna say that yesterday Kai Shek had a birthday party in his house. And basically we played Snooker the whole time. But it was fun though. The picture should tell much. Attendees include....For me to know and for you to find out. Too bad. haha. Anyways i have to say snooker is one of the best party games you can think of. Sweet. Ciaoz.
Wait Wait. For one month definitely i have to say something more. See, a lot has been happening in school.
And now being a probation prefect it feels like i'm some kind of hardcore prisoner to the school rules. Seriously. Its like i'm chained to the wall and whipped by some kind of a 'follow-the-school-rules whip'. But never mind, one more month and it will all be over. No more mr. discipline robot Manwyn. Yup thats all i have to say. The rest is life and its routine.

This dude rock!!

2008-07-09T04:01:00.000-07:00

Dan Brown is officially one of my favourite authors now!
i mean, the way he writes these books, i mean his books, its brilliant!
The plot of the story,
the beauty of his language,
etc. haha
anyways he is truly the type of author we wanna talk about in the 21st century. seriously.
Pure genious and also author of The Da Vinci Code, Angels and Demons.
The pictures shown here are also another two his'. I don't care man he is definitely entering my list at the side here. [Favourites (mine la)]
Deception Point,
"An excellent thriller. A big yet believable story unfolding at breakneck pace, with convincing settings and just the right blend of likeable and hateful characters. A finely polished amalgam of action and intrigue."-Publishers Weekly

See what i mean? ....although i have to admit these books are actually released in bookshops quite some time ago. (what to do i was lazy to read before this)

By the way i just want to say something about todays prefect interview...
I feel good!!
....don't want to say some more later ah...haha....k la just kidding
But seriously. No. Not anymore.

The stars we made in class...

2008-07-04T07:18:00.000-07:00

well although its a little late to blog about this but hey...this is too sweet to not blog about...lol..

that Wednesday 2nd of july,
Yee Seen was folding stars in classroom and i was like 'eh eh teach me how also..' then okay la she taught me and we were like folding stars together in the classroom together...so funny la

i just couldn't get enough of the stars and practised and practised but still all the stars i folded were never perfect. sighs.

and i'm sorry to say dear....that even until now, today...i still cannot fold them perfectly. but anyways look what i did to three of the many stars we folded...(picture)..haha
k la don't know why so lazy to blog these days...ciaoz

Tagged by Yee Seen

2008-06-26T09:08:00.000-07:00

Rules .

1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves

2. Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people

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1. Why are you doing this?
*sila rujuk kepada tajuk post ini*

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
all my dreams to come true

3. Who are you in love with right now?
Yee Seen........

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Ehem..ehem...invest? lol....

5. What's your ideal lover like?
like....a lover i guess

6. If there was one thing you want to change in the past,what would it be?
if only i entered SAB since form 1...

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
what you mean really love? love is already 'really'

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
well, what else can i do? sighs if it happens then i have to berserah kepada takdir lo

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
life..

10. If you had three wishes, what would it be?
a) Love to never end
b) The people i love to never disappear from my life
c) three more wishes!!

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
damn...i still need a mirror for that right?

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?
well if Manwyn wasn't around i wouldn't too...

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
number 5.....

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
i hate to say this but.....married and rich? lol....

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
its different every morning..

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
everything i do, i do it for her...

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
what is love if this ever happens?

18. Do you ever think of commit suicide? xDD
Never ask me this. NO.

19. What type of people do you hate?
hate-able people

20. List 5 people to tag
i. -
ii. -
iii. -
iv. -
v. -

Tag?

2008-06-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

Whats this tag thing? i don't know but i'm doing it cause my friend bugged me....Calvin! that guy>on my link la where where

8 things i'm passionate about:
1. The sign (?)
2. Liverpool Football Club!!
3. Russel Hitchcock
4. Air Supply
5. Football on Saturdays? (see what i mean at number 1)
6. Planes
7. School? (again....)
8. Friends and Family

8 things i say or i do often:
1. be a guy (always)
2. the letter 'a'
3. walk
4. sit
5 listen to songs
6. football
7. think
8. see, hear, taste, smell, feel
happy? haha...

8 things i've read recently:
1. todays newspapers
2. blogs
3. the computer screen(s)
4. Television screen(s)
5. clock(s)
6. 'recently' is too subjective
7. ???????
8. God knows

8 things i could listen over and over again:
1. Air supply music
2. Russel Hitchcock's angelic voice!
3. Teachers, teachers, teachers (have to)
4. Stereos on television
5. sound?
6. what my brains have to say
7. what else?
8. stop bugging me..i don't know

8 things i've learnt last year :
1. Form three syllabus
2. that the year after i'll be 16
3. that accidents happen...anytime!
4. walking on crutches for a month
5. what i didn't even know i didn't know
6. the worst effects of stress (?!)
7. how to be a new guy in a new school
8. School song!

8 people i tag :
1. none
2.-8. Stop asking already!

Three days before 2nd term and...

2008-06-06T11:24:00.000-07:00

Wow today is the first time i actually watched a movie on its primiering day......Kung Fu Panda!! Funny like mad that movie......8/10 is my rating!
But seriously if you go MBO to watch a movie on its release day or around there (like what i just did)..
There'll be full of People who laugh because......everyone else is laughing......haha...as in they don't understand the humour of the movies...sighs..Ampang people

Went with friends from neighbourhood..feel so kekok eh first time go out with group of people with ages ranging from 12 to 17. like what kind of outing is that man? But fun also because the movie was soooooooo funny and inspiring(?!). Seriously.

After the movie ended at about 2.29 i had to rush(.....) to school for class at three. So in the car i had to stuff my PJ shirt and pants over my casual wear so that i can walk into the school with a student identity. and i was sweating like mad.
Walked all the way to class...and...WTF!
Nobody was there and the class was locked. Had to take taxi home and wasted 6 bucks.
So its either i was too dumb to find out whether there was class on that day, or nobody bothered to inform me, including teacher. I think both. hahaha

late already for healthy boy Manwyn...

Finally another post..........hahaha

2008-06-03T02:37:00.000-07:00

Its been lightyears(actually one week half) since i posted a blog here......a lot has happened, fun things, sad things.

BUT,
i'm gonna talk about fun things first. Writing this blog, i just came back from port dickson, super fun man that hotel was like okay la i think its Legend Hotel. The toilet and and room had like a big freaky hole on the floor covered by thick glass and can see right down into the sea water. That was cool man i want so badly to put a picture of that here but i seriously don't know how to upload pictures into this bluetooth-less laptop. hahaha. anyway we did so much stuff there, one of it was............

i finally swam after like one year of not doing it!!
that was very very fun but let me tell you guys something( maybe you know already).....the sea water in port dickson is filthy filthy and filthy. murky black and..eeew..disgustingly disgusting.
however, knowing Manwyn, he still stupidly swam in it. haha what to do so long never try swimming in sea water and swimming pool.

then we played so much pool as in the snooker thingy that i broke the tip of a cuestick.muahahahaha. vandalising.
besides that what else i did in port dickson?
NOTHING.
....................................
which is why i only say the trip was 'okay'.
haha. and if you were wondering i went there with my family and two other really close friends(annoying however, particularly Marcus...haha sorry dude) with their families.
oh yes yes now i remember what else i did, we took many videos of 'embarrasing moments caught on tape' but seriously, we planned it to make it funny enough so maybe can post on you tube. then there was this scene we made my friend was like scratching his butt while watching tv and chased the cameraman(me) after he realised it was being videotaped but all of it was planned la. it was fun though.
and we ate lots of ice cream. i hope my friends especially school friend won't come to me when school reopens and say 'dude you look fatter'. i'm gonna kick anyone who says that man. just kidding la.

then on my birthday (28 May) i went to pavillion with joshua ,ushana ,garry ,clement and who else? yeh those four guys only and we went on a movie watching fiesta. two movies in a day only la actually. 'Ironman' and 'What Happens in Vegas'. and you should have seen that dissapointed face that Garry boy carried all along. Why? nevermind nevermind i better not tell why. later small boy whack me. hahaha relax brother.
anyways i gotta get lost now late already(6 o'clock) but i good boy what. have to go study for final term(?!). Your head la i go play la lazy to layan computer already. so...off i go.

Hoohaha...........Exams over!!!!

2008-05-22T07:31:00.000-07:00

today was the last of exam...........chemistry..........kacang la

BUT!!!
physics paper was a disaster!...super duper world class disaster!
how should i put it?
ah..like this la...
HALF the paper i tembak,
another HALF wrong,
another QUARTER tak sempat do,
you do the math.

but.............nevermind cause exams are over now!!!hahaha i'm gonna celebrate the two weeks of holidays like mad.........after three weeks of crappy exam(the longest so far!)

ya la ya la i must get used to the upper form exam system..but hey my brain still thinks like a form three you know
some more tiba tiba only the jump like so much (i mean syllabus)
and it STILL feels like PMR is just over

anyway back to the good stuff,
exam is over, suddenly i feel like nothing to do
BESIDES homework of course...
suddenly, life feels so good, so too good.
CELEBRATE!

die..die..exams!

2008-05-17T09:06:00.000-07:00

i think this is like the second time i'm blogging today but i really need to luahkan what i feel.........

EXAMS!!!
it makes me feel so like..how you say it?....ah, so like want to take my bio book and rip it apart..i mean come on la on tuesday i've got Physics, then Chemistry the next day, then bio on thursday..

and what have i done?
NOTHING!

today i didn't study..got la but three freaking pages of bio..what is that man?
i guess i lost all my interest already...three weeks of exam...i lost all the 'umph' power in me to study...haih sad la
and then one month after this blog posted i'm sure i'll be back cursing myself about the results...life is too predictable
well maybe because i set the 'arah' of my life but come on la..

you know the lines...
'if they say why,why? tell em that its human nature,why, why? cause we do it that way'

yea, manwyn's and human nature to procrastinate..houston off

i've been waiting to show it to you...

2008-05-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

i wrote this poem for quite some time already but i just don't know how to dedicate it to you....
well i figured my blog would be a good place..
i really mean what i say here dear..so i hope you'll like it

when the nights seem lonely.
or when the endless crickets' singing,
seem to be my only company,
the thoughts of you playing,
all around inside my head, within my soul,
i can feel that spark of inspiration,
i find peace upon the world at whole,
and i ask Him, as if in desperation,
what have i ever done?
Ever?
to find you as the one,
the one that does me that favor,
of bringing an extra meaning to my life,
of banishing my understanding of the word 'loneliness',
now i wonder where was that knife,
that cut through me in the seemingly eternal darkness,
perhaps you took it away,
and i am glad,
that now in front of me you lay,
what really makes me sway,
what moves me so dearly in the night and day,
and that i would call,
love,
and truly,
i love you.

you are the greatest dear..

Ladies and Gentleman, this is Houston signing in!

2008-05-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

yes, this is oficially my blog...haha... i know you guys will be wondering why i'm doing this blog....well i thought it would be cool can do so much stuff(s) on it like meluahkan my perasaan or something

so i kinda like a new guy in this blog thingy i don really know how to manage my profile also..i'm like lost in this maze..in fact i nearly don't know how to post this blog..lol

and if you're wondering what or who is houston its actually a..aya tell you also no use...but its a very famous line la so don't you think its a nice title?

yea all of you guys rock add me in friendster and msn if can its brainless_manwyn@hotmail.com